Purity Culture & Overcoming Boob Hate

I was raised to be modest. There was a lot of expectation to keep myself covered. As such I internalized a lot ¬†of boob shame. Between sexual assault and coming out as genderqueer this got amplified and I developed a love-hate relationship with my chest. I’ve always been sexually awkward, in part due to the […]

Genderqueer & Unconventional Wedding

So this is slightly off-theme of what I normally blog about here (my mental health, sexuality, etc), but it is coming up a lot right now. I’m engaged and it seems like there is not a lot of information out there for Genderqueer Weddings. I’m non-binary, I use they/them pronouns, and to a lot of […]

Overcoming Sexual Brokenness

My entire young adult life my sexuality has felt like an under developed work in progress, riddled with shame and internalized stigma. I am excited to be in a place where I can really start to explore and experience feeling my sexuality as healthy, and progress beyond awkward buttsecks jokes on instagram.  What is helping […]

Burnt out – amory

I’ve been polyamorous for 6 years. I realized aside from one serious relationship in my youth I’ve been polyamorous most of my adult life.  I recently tried something I called “Nomadic Polyamory”, that is living across multiple spaces with multiple partners. It was just 2, plus my own home space, essentially meaning that for a […]

Monumental Shift

I did a spell of transformation. It was successful. I have inverted my motivation matrix. “I cannot write because of him” has become “I will create so much and love so loudly that my pain from him will become nothing but a whimper in comparison to the stream of creation I will spew out”. I […]

Nomadic Polyamory

When I google Nomadic Polyamory, it brings up tales of world travelers, finding love in corners of the earth when our presence there is fleeting. That is not what I mean by Nomadic Polyamory, but it is a phrase I have started to casually use as the best descriptor I can find of my current […]

Religious Collusion

The spiritual path is a maze with many doors and many exits. Slow build hacks as we bridge a shared reality, no longer allowing inside worlds to harbor isolation. We are all and all is one. I’ve struggled with alligence and commitment, demanding instead that gods prove themselves to me, be worthy of my belief […]