Purity Culture & Overcoming Boob Hate

I was raised to be modest. There was a lot of expectation to keep myself covered. As such I internalized a lot ¬†of boob shame. Between sexual assault and coming out as genderqueer this got amplified and I developed a love-hate relationship with my chest. I’ve always been sexually awkward, in part due to the […]

Heavy Backpack

I have published a kindle ebook verison of my first poetry chapbook. These poems capture a moment in time of my life while I couldn’t work on bigger creative projects due to an assault. The collection reflects my resiliency and recovery as I used poetry to survive a difficult period in my life. Kindle ebook […]

Overcoming Sexual Brokenness

My entire young adult life my sexuality has felt like an under developed work in progress, riddled with shame and internalized stigma. I am excited to be in a place where I can really start to explore and experience feeling my sexuality as healthy, and progress beyond awkward buttsecks jokes on instagram.  What is helping […]

Dystopia Daydreams

I have had to overcome fear of my creativity. At one point I was with someone who strangled and tortured me hoping to know more of my creative insights. It was not an attempted murder but it felt like I survived murder as it instilled in me fear that this person had the power to […]

Beneficiary Revenge (or Get that Shit away from me)

Not in my name, not for my healing, not because you think I deserve justice and somehow you’re qualified to dole it out. I’m talking about revenge in behalf of others. How many people offer to break the legs of the guy who assaulted me? A few. Would it accomplish anything? No. When we see […]

Recovery & Catching Up

When you are in the middle of coping you forget all the things that you can do to make life run smoothly. It’ s four years post psychosis and a few years past the assaults and abusive relationship which followed. I remember in my early recovery that I read or heard in a podcast that […]

Monumental Shift

I did a spell of transformation. It was successful. I have inverted my motivation matrix. “I cannot write because of him” has become “I will create so much and love so loudly that my pain from him will become nothing but a whimper in comparison to the stream of creation I will spew out”. I […]