Accepting Limitations

So I had this idea for Sobbing Writers Month, even made a facebook event and invited others to join in. The idea was that it would be like NaNoWriMo, but for unfinished projects and (obviously) sobbing. I came up with this idea from a place of great optimism, brought on by changes in my life. […]

Overcoming Sexual Brokenness

My entire young adult life my sexuality has felt like an under developed work in progress, riddled with shame and internalized stigma. I am excited to be in a place where I can really start to explore and experience feeling my sexuality as healthy, and progress beyond awkward buttsecks jokes on instagram.  What is helping […]

Dystopia Daydreams

I have had to overcome fear of my creativity. At one point I was with someone who strangled and tortured me hoping to know more of my creative insights. It was not an attempted murder but it felt like I survived murder as it instilled in me fear that this person had the power to […]

Burnt out – amory

I’ve been polyamorous for 6 years. I realized aside from one serious relationship in my youth I’ve been polyamorous most of my adult life.  I recently tried something I called “Nomadic Polyamory”, that is living across multiple spaces with multiple partners. It was just 2, plus my own home space, essentially meaning that for a […]

Writing After Hiatus

I have nicknamed March “Sobbing Writers Month”, in which I am planning to do what I am calling an “Intensive”. It is my intent to immerse myself in my novel universe and reclaim it. It is hard to pinpoint when I stopped writing, but the halt was solidified after an assault, which I have addressed […]

Recovery & Catching Up

When you are in the middle of coping you forget all the things that you can do to make life run smoothly. It’ s four years post psychosis and a few years past the assaults and abusive relationship which followed. I remember in my early recovery that I read or heard in a podcast that […]

Monumental Shift

I did a spell of transformation. It was successful. I have inverted my motivation matrix. “I cannot write because of him” has become “I will create so much and love so loudly that my pain from him will become nothing but a whimper in comparison to the stream of creation I will spew out”. I […]