Right to Revoke Control

The right to take back control is implied and always present. We fight for control in our lives all the time. Sometimes we do this through self-mastery, sometimes we do it by trying to control others, sometimes we gain control by giving it away….. wait, what? I have had control taken from me violently, forcibly […]

Writing After Hiatus

I have nicknamed March “Sobbing Writers Month”, in which I am planning to do what I am calling an “Intensive”. It is my intent to immerse myself in my novel universe and reclaim it. It is hard to pinpoint when I stopped writing, but the halt was solidified after an assault, which I have addressed […]

Recovery & Catching Up

When you are in the middle of coping you forget all the things that you can do to make life run smoothly. It’ s four years post psychosis and a few years past the assaults and abusive relationship which followed. I remember in my early recovery that I read or heard in a podcast that […]

Monumental Shift

I did a spell of transformation. It was successful. I have inverted my motivation matrix. “I cannot write because of him” has become “I will create so much and love so loudly that my pain from him will become nothing but a whimper in comparison to the stream of creation I will spew out”. I […]

Power & Consent in Mental Health

This is a post about mental illness and medication. When I was sick, really sick, my consent kind of fell away. I did as I was told because I knew it was the only way out and back to freedom. Sometimes, it’s the doctors job to tell you really bad news, like, if you want […]